Lets go on a ride.Can we say RATCHET!! I seen this pic today and started shaking my head and laughing. The thing is its not funny at all. See that pic on the left was taken in 2007-2008 i had not to long gotta out of a horrible relationship and little did i know i was about to head right back into another one. In this pic i was clearly so drunk. I mean look at my face, my clothes, posing on pool tables in the club! Cmon now, im talkin straight tow up from the flo up wasted. Around this time i was parting hard i had took on an attitude of "i dont care i just wanna be free and live my life doing what i want!" So i started to go out of town every weekend and party and drink with a friend. For me it was a total ESCAPE from everything! From life, from rules, but mostly from the hurt &pain i was feeling inside that NO ONE knew about. My mind was GONE and my heart..broken. I was very confused, self worth was non existent and felt so rejected &worthless.So i would drink and party to avoid it. Which did nothing but numb me and get me into another bad 4yr relationship which added more heartbreak, damaging self esteem and baggage than before. Then i got saved, i stop drinking, stopped partying and got into church.God literally saved my mind! Now fast forward to the women on the right. Yup thats me now. Older, wiser and sold out for Jesus. See alot of people dont understand why i worship God like i do. Why i live like i do. People like to say "you so deep!" Or "Lord, Cici so Holy" or look at me sideways because i dont drink or hang with everybody or do what everyones doing. And to all that i say YES YOU ARE SO RIGHT! I am deep. Maybe you are just to shallow? I am holy and pure just like my father. Maybe you have not really been washed yet? And i cant hang and go with everyone cuz everyone cant have access to my anointing! Maybe you just dont see your power or worth yet? All i know is that God took that girl on the left whos life was headed down a path of destruction and turned her into that girl on the right who is bold and confident and has a heart totally devoted to Jesus and his righteousness! He changed me!All im saying is If he did it for me he can do it 4 you! #Jesus
