I am, just me

ME

A beautifully complex well versed poem.

 Tells  tales of pain that persevered.

Not to be confused with any other but all alone an individual masterpiece.

 Possessing creativity flowing from me like past tears.

Hidden treasures inside, if you are willing to take the journey to unlock me.

Find the key.

A couple of walls, few blocks and some barricades,

I didn't say it would be easy. 

Many times feeling misunderstood,

Just wanting to do good and enter into that bliss.

Isolated caterpillar,

Confined catalyst,

Emerging butterfly,

Spreading my wings to fly,

becoming that which I was seeking...LOVE.

Parents... You only have one set!

Ephesians 6 :2-4

Many of us may be frustrated with where we are in life. Having a feeling like more is out there, but you just cant seem to attain it. Even more frustrating is that fact that you don't know why. Let me just ask, could it be how your have choosen to treat or respect your parents?
  In Ep 6:2-4 It clearly states "Honor your father and mother-which is the first commandment with a promise. So that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth."
Okay but wait... if your like me, you asked the question: so that WHAT may go well with me?? Well in Deut 5:16 it answers the question for us. It says  "that it may go well with you in the land your God IS GIVING YOU."
  See you must understand that everything in your life has happen for a purpose and has served as an agent in shaping and grooming you. God wants you to enter into all the things he has promised to you but he cant until you get certain relationships in your life in order. One importantly, is the relationship with your parents. Note: the verse in Ephesians does NOT say only honor them if there right or only if there not a deadbeat or only if they have been in your life they entire time. No, it says just to honor them, PERIOD. In everything and through everything. It even goes on to tell you how important this particular commandment is by saying its the first to be attached with a promise. And as I have been taught in accordance to listing and order in the bible, when something is listed first, it is in correlation to importance. So this must be a rather important commandment to be the FIRST to have a promise attached!
  Many of us have been holding on to grudges, unforgiveness , and anger towards our parents. Maybe because of feelings of abandonment, ridicule, abuse or mistakes they may have made in our upbringing. I say to you if your parents are alive or dead its time to let those things go. Your only hindering yourselves. Its time to be freed from the negative feelings your holding toward your parents. This particular subject is something that I am all to familiar with. For years I had held onto ill feelings toward my biological mother. Whom I was not raised by, and from the time of a child at 8years old have not had a relationship with. There was much unforgiveness inside of me towards her. I didn't understand how a mother would not try to build a relationship with her child and just let years pass with nothing! Not a happy birthday, no I love you or in the least reach out to contact me. This burden I carried and suppressed for 18years, which had an effect on me emotionally when it came to feeling of acceptance. For years there was always a feeling of neglect, rejection and just the mindset and thought that I would never going to be good enough for anyone. And I carried that same lie and thought into other relationships and situations in my life ,which birthed into other avenues of depression and low self esteem. It was like a cancer and was a hindrance in my personal growth spiritually, emotionally and mentally. Im now 27 years old and im proud to say that this year because of God I have been able to be freed from the heavy unforgiveness, grudges and lies I was holding on to for so long. Now I am on a road to restoration between my mother and I, and you can do the same!!!
  You may ask, how do I do that? Where do I even start? From personal experience you must first want to deal with the issues and not suppress them. Denial is not just a river in Egypt! Lol. Then you go to the Father and take all that baggage(your thoughts, feelings etc) with you and simply RELEASE them to him. Ask him to forgive you for holding on to those ill feelings, ask him to fill any void in you from those things. Then you must finally forgive them that hurt or offended you. But lastly, you MUST forgive yourself for believing the lies and feelings you held on to. Once you do that you will free yourself and open yourself up to instruction by the Holy Spirit on how to move forward from that point.
  See you must remember that everything in your life works together for your good. (Romans8:28). Even the things that have hurt us or that we may not understand they are still working for our good! God desires for you to be free and walk into your promised land of opportunities and dreams beyond what you can imagine, but because he is not a man that he should lie, he requires you get some things in order first. The amazing part is you can start today...be blessed!






 



You are enough!!!

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My God!! YES I AM ENOUGH!!! So many of us women are out here with smiles on our faces but inside we are emotionally hurting, self esteem is low and we are lacking confidence. We can believe for everyone else, pray for everyone else and help everyone else around us but now its time we start doing the same for ourselves! You were created with a purpose. You are a light that shines and is the answer to something in this world. God does not make mistakes and you were created in his image and he said everything he made is good! Its time to dream again, believe again and take the courageous steps of faith because baby if you only knew what lies in store for YOU!!! Get back to being the YOU that you were created to be, YOU ARE ENOUGH.....

Im back... time to get FOCUSED!!!

Been away for a little while but i'm back now!! I'm sure you may be wondering why, so let me tell you. First, I have just been busy with the many things going on in my everyday life (work, choir, relationship ect.) but also I have been spiritually going through. See when God is working on you and maturing you sometimes it can be very hard. To be honest not all of your days are going to be peachy. There are going to be days that are smooth and some days you may feel frustrated. In my case God has been showing me things about myself that he is illuminating and developing and also things that are not so grand that he wants to remove. Let me be the first to say it is not easy having to not acknowledge some of your issues and deal with them, But in order to make a change we must first change ourselves. There have been days that I have had to fight being depressed and I have cried many tears but even in my tears I know that everything thing that im going through or being caused to deal with is for my benefit and it is only going to make me stronger in my ministry and my position in advancing the kingdom of God. Even knowing that, some days are just harder then others. That's why our relationship with Christ is so important because in those times that you are weak the bible says "God is Strong" and we need that strength to keep us going. But we must make sure to continually keep developing that relationship with God if not it can be very easy to feel overwhelmed, stressed and exhausted. Not to mention when you take your eyes off of God and put them on everything else you lose your focus you start looking at the right now instead of the future. Take me for example, the past couple weeks I had been going here and there and my mind too. I was dealing with choir, trying to advance my makeup business and also the stress of finances. To top it all off my boyfriends mother passed which added a little more stress for everyone. During this time I just felt as though I had been running around and around. I mean im trying to be here emotionally for him, get everyday day task finished, be at this practice or make it to this meeting. Though I had continued reading my word daily it started to be rushed and even when I would read I would be thinking about the next thing that had to be done and not really meditating on the word. I started to feel drained, even when I would sleep I didn't wake up feeling completely rejuvenated. Until last week, after being down out how my finances are I  heard the Holy Spirit tell me I needed a spiritual refueling and also to FOCUS. You see slowly but surely I was getting distracted. I started to let other things come before my relationship with God. As a result I was drained mentally and emotionally not to mention I had started to look at my situation instead of with the eyes of my faith. When you do that I believe it allows the enemy to have a brief advantage over you because that's when he will come with the doubt, fear and depression. To make a long story short after repenting to my Father, this week I just had to take a break and get back on track, which is what I did. I stated to give God his proper time deserved, meditating on my word, praying and I even fasted. Let me say that after doing that have been able to get back focused and hear clearly from the spirit. I was able to re evaluate some things and get new ideas for my business ventures and revisit previous interest that I had got off track with(like this blog. Lol). Just like the loving Father he is, he welcomed me with open arms and reminded me that all when have to do when we may go off track is to turn our hearts back to him. What a loving and awesome God he is that all he wants from us is a RELATIONSHIP. So I say to you, whatever has come to try and distract you IT WILL NOT PROSPER! Get up, dust yourself off, make sure you are in the right position with God and keep walking. Trials and tribulations will come and growing pains do hurt but it will be all the more worth it in the end! Stay blessed!!!

You have a PURPOSE!!

"People may have overlooked you, but God has not forgotten about you!"

Just hold on

Be patient. God is just preparing you. The best things come to those who wait...

Step by Step

So yesterday I woke up very energized and ready to take my morning walk. As i was walking I noticed that I do so much better when I look at my feet taking each step. When I look up and focus on the distance I have left to finish mentally it always seems so far away, like it is going to take forever to get there. Then I had a revelation: That if we just take everything one step at a time and focus on that step we will eventually arrive at our destination, it will also stop us from the discouraging feeling of viewing a destination that seems unattainable. Its very easy to get discouraged by focusing on the destination but if you don't take the proper steps you will never be able to achieve it!  Just keep moving...Be blessed yall