Friday, March 13, 2015

Song of my heart

Listen to this song just took me back some years ago, to I think 2007-ish. Before I had really got saved. It was coming off a time during/after a breakup, were I was literally left feeling worthless. My self confidence was non existent so much that i did not like looking in the mirror and when i had to i would look past my own eyes I was severely depressed, very sad and confused. Matter a fact I thought that I was going crazy, my mind was everywhere. I did not stay at my apartment for  like two months a couple weeks at my folks and the rest of the time at a friends because I was so not in my right mind and scared of what I might do. I was totally without a doubt broken! Anyhoo I started to go to church with my friend, started to get my mind back and went back to my house. This is when I first began listening to gospel. I still would have a really hard time sleeping. When I layed down I would be very afraid ,anxiety and would have lots of crazy dreams(like Satan killing me, you know stuff like that) I would lay in my bed and just cry, cry, cry all night. I was not that mature in the word, didn't know about a tongue or spiritual realm or what the offices was in church. But what I did know is that in the Bible it says the name of Jesus is the most powerful name, and demons tremble and flee at the name of it. I remembered this song cuz I heard it in the car. So every time I would have crazy thoughts or when I would lay in my bed I would began to sing this sometimes out loud sometimes just in my mind. And a calm would come over me and I would fall asleep. Wow. God is good and has brought me a loooong way. You never know what people going through, a smile can hide a lot of things. I will forever love this song though...

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